I'm living in a 3rd world country..

So after Clomid failed, I’m suppose to try injection from day 3 to 7 and return on day 7 for the scan.
Before my period starts, we went to the pharmacy near home to buy the injections. Is an uncommon medications (an injection pen and the fluid) so we need to order and is to arrive next day. All was fine and we managed to get them next day. It was super expensive at 250€ which I’m glad our insurance covers it fully.

I was to start on Friday and husband is away for friend’s bachelor weekend. After overcoming the stress of self injection, I started to prepare. Then came the shifty realisation that the pharmacy ordered and sold us the wrong medication! Insread of medication for the pen, she gave us medication for the normal syringe, which I definitrly can t do myself!
So day 4 (Saturday) I went to the same pharmacy, another person told me is stupid that they ordered wrong medicine and she will order the correct medicine to me to arrive the afternoon and I can still rush for the schedule. And I returned the wrong medication to her. I was super happy and noticed she only ordered 1 box of medication (not enough for 7days). I went back and said to order another box and she assured me that when the medicine arrive later, we test and order another.

I went back at 1600, another pharmacist gave me my order and is a fucking injection pen! Apparently, the morning lady ordered me another pen injection instead of the medication. I want to cry...the crazy thing is this pharmacist didn’t believe that I have the same empty pen that I had to show her. Then again, she started scolding the morning lady and is really stupid. I just want my fucking medication!!! At this moment, I really hate my bad French, I have 1001 hokkien vulgarities running in my head and all singaporean professional complaints I can’t say in French..

Since we are in France, it will be only be possible to have the medication on Monday, which is day 6 and too far behind schedule. First wrong may be accidental but again?! She then phone the hospital pharmacy to check whether they have the medication. The good news is they do have but I have to travel there to buy it. What???!!! Despite all their mistakes, I have to go all the way to buy the medication? I was expecting that they take a taxi and go buy and return or pay for my taxi but nothing... oh, and guess what, I have to pay for the medication now while they wait for their system to cancel the order and thereafter, I go claim back from the insurance myself. I am speechless.

While I’m thankful that I’m not waiting for us life saving medication, I think the whole medicine industry should know how important ist is for the injections to be on schedule. Well, I’m still on my bus to the other pharmacy and hope is not an empty hope.

Shingles

Ok, I neglected the blog for long enough..
Changing how I write here because blogging from phone... Oh Yes, I was so depressed 1 day that I went buy a new phone and finally got a data plan! And I wondered why I didn't get data plan for last 3 years! I still work in "prison" where i cant use phone at work but "connected" life is great!

Anyway I was so busy at work and drowning in negative energy that I want to do nothing...
I probably should write about our recent trip but the most out of the blue event was I got shingles! Maybe I should say, I have shingles because I'm not fully receovered yet.

So, it started when I felt I had sunburnt on different parts of my left leg. Probably is it didn't look sunburnt. I'm generally in shade or pants that I shouldn't have sunburnt. It was so irritating to walk, sleep, wearing bottoms and while doing nothing. I googled a little but found no right answers. Well, I don't think I'll find good answer when I search like "sunburnt feelings but no sunburn". Somewhere in Google it mentioned shingles but I didn't had spots. I thought maybe the weather ia hot and i got heat rash like i did in singapore last year.

A few days later i came home and complained to husband that i got mosquitoes bites on same leg. On closer observation, he said looks like other kind of insects bites. Thats why i noticed 1 spot had fluid in it like chicken pox! Actually i dont really have memory how chicken pox looks like because when i had it, it was my sister who noticed its chicken pox.
Anyway, we were not very convinced its shingles because i only had a few spots.

The next day doctor confirmed i have shingle and i got antiviral med and cream, which didnt help relieved the symptoms. Maybe the med did help to minimise the number of full blown spots. It felt like someone constantly trying to break my knee and a continuous tattoo session on the spots. As the pain and aching reduced, the itchness starts. Problem is the itchness is the whole leg and not just the spots! I think i managed to burst a few spots accidently. And it didnt help to try to sleep with pain or itchness.

I dont think im fully recovered but its managable now. I guess i just need more sleep to catch up the sleepless nights ...

short trip in barcelona

Since I was away for holiday with in laws
last Oct when sis was in Geneva
we didnt get to meet up.
sis is here in Barcelona for the week
so I got her to extend her trip for extra day
and I went to meet her


on Thursday night after work
I went to the airport for my flight
its been so long that I took a flight alone
that I forgot how boring to take a plane alone
all went quickly since is within europe
and there was no custom check.
while I was nuaing and waiting to board
suddenly the gate changed
and it was a crazy crowd to move to new gate
the boarding was delayed too
we finally took off at 2100
instead of 2045


the last time I came barcelona
was for my prewedding trip with Aven
so I totally forgot how to get to city center
lucky sis hotel provided the clear info
we arrived slight late at 2240
and while I was panicking about long queues at customs
and finding the bus
I got out of the airport within 10mins
again, my peabrain forgot there is no customs
and I was seated in front rows


bus was just outside the terminal
so I got my ticket and off we go for the 30min bus ride
despite map provided by hotel and my own googlenap research,
a 3min walk from bus terminal to hotel
managed to become 20min walk
with my zero map reading skills and no wifi
thankfully Barcelona is a night city
and I had not much fear walking around lost.


after I finally arrived the hotel
so phone was off
so I had to ask the reception to call the room
and we finally met!
it was nearly midnight and we went to a nearby place for taps and sangaria
chatted till 3+ and felt asleep.


the next day was pretty much shopping at zara
shopping at Zara
and shopping at Zara..
there was so many Zara store
that you throw a stone and can hit a Zara store
it was truly a shopping trip!

as usual with my navigation skills
and no wifi
we managed to constant get lost..haha
we had paella for lunch
and did zero sightseeing
I think more than half the time
is me blabbing about my life in france
my poor sis must be full of my negativity..

crazily 2 women can spend a full day shopping
and finally tabo burger king for dinner and rest in the room
it was st patricks day
and the streets were full of excited youngsters
and sis fell asleep at 2200..
and I watched YouTube till 200.
must be old age, no energy go party.

the last day went pretty quick
with breakfast at hotel, check out
and taking the transfer car to airport
which we forgot that we are in different terminals
and need say bye much earlier than excited...

short, tiring but happy trip
can't wait to be back in sg for more time with everyone...

Home improvements 2017

It has been 1.5 years since we shifted
Apart from constantly shifting our current furniture
every few months because im trying to find the 'correct' style for the home
we finally decided it is time
we can buy new furniture...
well i think it was me deciding more than husband..
haha

The first to change was the wardrobe
it started when we went to ikea
to look for new sofas
and noticed how our current wardrobe looks like for hobbits
because its so low (1.8m)
compared to all the proper wardrobes on display (2.0+m)
So we decided a taller wardrobe will increase storage place
and make use of our high celining (3m)
We order something with all the accersories from IKEA
and unexpectedly spenr 12hours (!!!)
dismantling the old wardrobe
and fixing the new one...
I never knew ikea can take so long
or we are just bad?

The mirror cupbord used to be the height of our old wardrobe.
At least now we dont feel like our wardrobe is for hobbits
but feel totally like we are hobbits compared to the new wardrobe.

Back to the original story,

why we went ikea..

Apart from i want eat at ikea and buiy random things

we wanted to check out the sofas.

The problem of our 2 seater sofa was it's too short

well, when we first arrive in this apartment,

we noticed that the living room is not in a regular shape,

so the previous owner managed to put a tiny sofa in a corner

that seems to add more space for the room.

We spent so much time searching for the perfect sofa 

that could fit into that tiny corner 

and we finally did with a 1.50m sofa..

Problem is after a while,

i start to feel the sofa is too short.

Its fine for 2 person seated

but i cant even lie fully solo.

After complaining for 1 year,

i think is time to reshuffle the room 

and get a longer sofa!

Husband hesitated on buying sofa online

since he felt the previous one was exp and uncomfy

and also he is unsure how a bigger sofa will be in ouir living room.

Long story short,

i saw online a longer sofa online

i liked the simple look and 'transformer' style

and persuaded him to buy it 

for him, the sofa is cheaper than our previous,

so it may be more uncomy

and he feels that we dont need the transformer style etcs

well, he is constantly the procastinator....

And guess who is the happy one with the new sofa?

The old sofa has been transfered to the bed room zen corner

and suddenly i feel we are quite ready to invite people to come

or any one from Singapore want to come sleepover???

Fuck you 2016!

Every year end, I will normally go back to the resolutions
that i set the year before
and summarize whether I achieved them or what happened
Then set new ones for the new year.
2016 was such a bad year
that i think is best to summarise by the bad stuff.

1) lost the kids
After trying for nearly a year,
i finally got pregnant
yet, the pregnancy has to be terminated
and they were twins...
till today, still unsuccessul to be pregnant again

2) Nono left
It happened in few weeks after the miscarriage
so, it makes the second time i lost a family member
in such a short period of time

3) Started work in a toxic office with horrible bosses
I thought i have survived worse work environment in Singapore
but i just met the champion
Underpaid, abusive bosses and toxic office
I can't think of any worse.
Oh 1 year contract,
i cant take my yearly CNy holidays to Singapore

Yes, maybe there are some happy moments that happened
but i really want to say fuck you 2016!
Im so glad not to see you again...

Visiting Lourve..

Despite being in france for nearly 3 years,
Im kinda ashamed to admit that i havent been to the lourve.
Yes, i went numerous time to the iconic glass triangle
but never into the museum.

First, because im not a big museum fan
I find museums so big here
that im feel so overwhelm by all the artworks in 2hours
hmmm, maybe i should go same museum 5 times 
and try not to see everything in a day.

Secondly, the famous mon lisa
If you ever google mona lisa in lourve
its often the scary crowded, full of people room
with the tiny mona lisa painting
Im not interested to squeeze with everyone to see her!

Anyway husband received free tickets to lourve

so we took 1 saturday to go

Sadly, i was really tired that week,

hell, im tired verey week since my colleague went holiday

and my boss dumped all her work onto me..

But husband still managed to drag me there

for at least 2.5hours, haha

We were surprised that there was no queue to enter

and no big crowds at mona lisa

that we could even went in front to take photos

Being superficial art lovers

we went to look at the famous artworks

and finally to the eyptian area 

which i think is quite nice

but im thinking all the mummies must be sad to be far from egypt

i bet the afterlife they were promised to

definitely doesnt include being in Paris.

Okay! 1 tick on the must do check list...

33th Birthday..

The weekend before my birthday
we took a short trip to Lille
Basically it was a shopping trip
because theres nothing much to do except shopping
and husband didnt know what to get me as a gift
so we decided to just buy anything i saw
Good news for him is that i didnt really found much things to buy
I dont know is it because i was in the no-mood mode
because the kids were supposed to be my birthday present
but it was nice to get out of normal routine.

We did visit some churchs
but it was mainly just roaming around
and the only nice thing i remembered
was this 2nd hand books place located in a courtyard
and this is where i found my coolest birthday gift
A newspaper published on the same date of my birthday
but 100years older than me!!

The rest was eating and walking around
i think im so glad that husband bought his new hiking shoes
at least he didnt complained about all the shopping!
This year winter seems to be here early
So, it was chilly with rain 
that during 1 evening, i learnt my scarf to husband
and he ended up looking like a strange woman..haha

I forgot when is the last time i spend my actual birthday alone
or went to work during my birthday.
Anyway, husband had a work function in the evening
and i didnt want to take any day off
so, it was simply a normal day spent.
Except that husband woke me up early
made a special birthday breakfast for me
gave me all the presents we got from our trip
and the famous konmarie tidying book
which my friends sent me an exact copy a few days late!
Make me wonder is it a sign to ask me to clean my home more often...

Since i dont really love my colleagues
I was glad that my birthday went un-noticed till almost it was time to go
The evening was peaceful with me eating my favorite instant noodles
and husband managed to come home before midnight
to force me to eat my birthday cake...

I guess this has not been a great year
but nevertheless, i survived it...