When loneliness strikes...

I always thought I can handle loneliness and isolation quite well
Life in france had taught me that sometimes in sg, i chose to be lonely and isolated
and times when i want to be surrounded,
there is always plentiful of friends, family, colleagues and even work to surround me.
On and off i have feel lonely.
The fact that i have no one to go to if i decide to runaway from home
or simply not having someone to have a drink with on a friday evening.
But often, these feelings of loneliness passed quickly.
And i seek comfort in whatsapping people in sg.

I guess i am to blame for not building up my social circle here.
I have been here for close to 2 years.
And I still only have a friend, who i knew through french class that i keep in contact with.
The rest will be husband's friends or family members
Maybe is the age or personality or expectations or our lifestyles,
i often wish that i can know people at a snap of my finger,
which never happened.
And my job, its not really a job to expand social circle,
unless you consider the 3 girls im babysitting as my friends.

Tonight at the usual babysitting,
my boss called me and she cant hear me
so she assumed her phone has a p^roblem and asked for my help to call the piano teacher
when i called the piano teacher, she cant hear me too
then i realised my phone is the one having the problem.
I called husband to verify whether my phone has a problem
and his phone was engaged / no reception that i cant get him
thats when the loneliness strikes me deeply
i realised i have no one else to call
just to check whether my phone is working

At the end, i called my friend (the only friend i have)
and she helped to confirmed that my phone is not working
although im glad had her to call
the scary loneliness that i had been denying of finally became a fact
I have no one to call 

On the way home,
i was so overwhelmed with emotions that i decided to whatsapp my sis and bff
then i remember i have no wifi so they will only received it when im home
and with the time difference, it will probably be hours later before they see it.
I guess i now have a very valid reason to add wifi to my mobile plan.

The good news is husband is suppose to buy me a phone for christmas,
but i guess i will get it tomorrow instead.
however, i guess france wins again

France 1 - Linn 0