31/3/18 - Yes or No

By right, I may feel contractions after the induce but I woke up feeling fine and had a great sleep through the night. Contractions started around 0800, I was happy that maybe today will be the day and contractions were still manageable. Finally, my gynae appeared and checked that i am still only 1cm dilated, argh! At least the contractions were good news that things are starting to move. She recommended that I am to be induce viaginally again tonight and we shall proceed to be induce via iv the next day if things are not moving fast enough..sounds like won't be the day for baby arrival.

Since nothing much is happening, except increase contractions pain, husband just bring me to climb stairs and walk around in hope that I will dilate faster. Nurse also informed that I can ask for painkillers if pain is unbearable. I think I'm a little paranoid that painkillers will be limited in strength to counter the pain, so I try to tahan as long as possible before asking for painkillers. Husband went home to bring more stuff for his stay and I managed to dose off in midst of the contractions..i guess the pain is manageable when I'm.lying on bed but I'm encouraged to move to help the process.

Dinner time came and pain was still managable so we guessed nothing will be happening tonight. It was 24hours after the first induce so I was sent to the room again to monitor baby and likely induce viaginally again. Strangely, the baby machine was beeping alot, either it was irregular bb heartbeat (crazily fast and slow). Nurse said that bb may be too excited so we just continue monitor. I felt a little guilty when she asked whether I ate dinner because we heard that our next door neighbour had so much contraction pain that she didn't ate dinner while me the greedy pig ate dinner and took a nice hot shower. However, it reached a point that the nurse got concern about bb heartbeat (not normal to be so excited always) and my rising pressure that she called my gynae. Suddenly, everything took a fast turn and i was to be induce via iv and be on epidural!

It was 2200 and i was only dilated 2cm. The plan was to start my iv induce then wait few hours for the anthesia dr to come and give me my epidural. Eh, i think just nice the Dr wanted to end his work so he came at 2300 instead and I had my scary epidural done. Although I know epidural is not the scariest moment of labor but it's still scary (esp when the nurse told the Dr about all the problems I'm having from high pressure to bb irregular heartbeat to the bb blood in my blood to gestional diabetes...is crazy that when I was first admitted, I was really quite fine). Finally all was done before midnight and I was just monitor. Nurse predict that I will probably still have a long wait before baby is here...

30/3/18 - staycation?

I woke up at 0700 by the nurse asking me what drink I wanted for breakfast and do I eat all meat? I was like what meat for breakfast?? Then I realise she means do I have any food preference for the rest of the meals..Haha, I was that half awake. Anyway, I probably will be discharge after seeing the gynae, what's the point of asking for the rest of the day?? 

Then the silly me realised that I took my diabetes injection tools but forgot my insulin. Thankfully husband decided to cancel his appt and brought them to me before breakfast and to hear some updates from gynae. 0800 to 0900 came and went, no sight of gynae and I did a blood test and blood pressure tests, all seems well. More nurses came and started doing my hospital admission?! We have no idea why they are wasting efforts to do all the administration when there is no update about whether I was going to be hospitalised. 

Next thing we knew, my gynae won't be here the whole day, so we will be seeing a replacement gynae. We were told as well that my blood pressure was high last night (14_) and needed monitoring. Eh ok, so am I going to be hospitalised or discharge today? 

Lunch came and went, still waiting for the imaginary gynae and hospital admission was done. I was looking and feeling fine that we questioned the purpose of staying. Husband even suggested that we go home after seeing the gynae to finish our half watched movie at home. Finally at 1600, the gynae is free!! He did a quick scan and said baby is big at 3.3kg but all seems fine. Then we recd new information again, there is a little bb blood in my blood test. And he will keep me hospital till my gynae return the next day to decide the next step. If im his patient, he will probably induce me now but he prefer to sms my gynae and let her decide what to do next.

This is crazy! Now we know why I am continuously hospitalised and no one gave us any information on what happened. Since tv rental was 6€ per day, I decided it's time to rent the tv.. it's boring on the hospital. I started googling all the scary stories about bb blood in my blood till husband stopped me and told me to stop scaring myself. Dinner came and this time we had the tv on....

Just as we thought nothing else for the day, my gynae informed the hospital to have me induced viaginally at 2100. So I was hooked on bb heartbeat machine for 2hours and need to fight my aching back. Finally all was done and I was sent back to room and husband stayed for the night with me... this starts our staycation in hospital...

29/3/18 - No warning

It reached the stage where I'm so bored and tired of being pregnant. Despite the big tummy, I moved more to get things done and hopefully help to dilate before the next gynae appt.
Everything seemed fine except that bb appeared to be moving more "gentle" and it took longer for her to reach 10kicks (she used to be doing karate kicks so often that she can reach 10kicks in less than 15min) but I googled and it's more about her having less space to move. According to forum, as long as she moves 6x in 1 or 2hr, there was nothing to panic. Since bb was still kicking 10x writhing 45m or 1hr, so I didn't panic. A part of me was secretly hoping that she will be coming out soon.. 

It was the last day to see the midwife and I was shocked to see that I had put in 5kg in a week (82kg!!), which is definitely not normal and I started to worry about pre eclampsia. My blood pressure was fine and had no other symptoms so sage femme didnt worried about pre e. I told sage femme about the slower kicks and bb was taking longer than usual to move while on bb heartbeat monitor. She told me to monitor bb movement and to go hospital if it continues. Before I left, she sms my gynae about these conditions- is the first time she sms my gynae about me but I thought because is my last session w her and she didn't appeared worried about my conditions...

Later in the evening, we recd a sms from her that my gynae will like to see us on 31/3 instead of the planned 3/4 for a closer monitor because of my conditions but nothing to panic about... I was more glad than worried to know we will see gynae earlier and maybe earlier induce?? Seriously, I didn't think that there was anything to worry about. 

As usual, before I went to bed, I started to count bb kicks... I was a lil panicking when it was already 1.5hours and she only kicked 8x. It feels silly to worry about it when she is already moving.. I couldn't bear it any longer and woke up husband at midnight. I needed him to call the hospital for advice. I predicted that the hospital will probably ask us to do something's to wake up the bb etc but instead they asked us to go in and stay for the night. I took a quick shower, my mummy bag and we took a slow walk to the hospital. 

Since husband has an early work appt the next day, i told him that i can stay for the check and he goes home to rest. To me, it was probably just 2hrs hooked up on the bb heartbeat machine then wait for some gynae to come see me in the morning that's why I needed to stay for the night. I was still joking that my dream delivery plan is to take a hot shower, have a good meal and slow painless walk to hospital and we managed to do it now(I didn't had a good meal because I wasn't hungry, haha).

When we arrived, the midwife checked my cervix and sadly still only 1cm...I was then hooked to the bb heartbeat monitor and bb seemed to be moving well and the midwife shown us how he moved my tummy to wake up the baby. After about 1hour, we were sent to my room to rest. We chose a single room since I'll be staying in a single room after delivery and it seems a good time to "try out" the room. And I was definitely not interested to share a room in the middle of the night. 

We were told that bb will be monitored again and we need to see my gynae in the morning..it was close to 3am, I chased husband home and hoped that he can end his appt early to see the gynae in the morning (supposed to be 0800 - 0900)... 

Maybe it was the bed, the room or lack of pillow..it was hard to fall asleep...